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Adventures in Post-Modern Ministry: That Word Does Not Mean What You Think it Means

On Saturday, I went to a lecture on Jacques Lacan and the use of metaphor and narrative in counselling situations.  Because I thought it would be fun!

And, also, given the number of times I preface conversations with, “But then again, I’m postmodern, so….”, I thought brushing up on actual postmodernists would be wise.

The day started out auspiciously–there was coffee!  Good coffee, readily available!  The day could commence!  (Sometimes, these things are dicey.)  In the process of acquiring said coffee (Sacrament #8), a woman came up to me, and without preamble, announced, “Your nametag is upside down.  That could be interpreted.”  She walked away, and I decided this lecture had just become the best lecture ever.  (For the record, it got caught on my hair.  I wasn’t trying to make a statement.)
In a nutshell, Jacques Lacan was a French psychologist who reexamined the teachings and writings of Freud in light of new philosophical theories of semiotics and deconstructionism.  ::crickets:::
And the fact that this previous sentence probably made little to no sense to many, many people would have made Lacan extremely excited, and proved his point.  Which was that language itself is isolating, and to be truly understood by another person was impossible.  This is also known in my small head as The Inigo Montoya Theory of Language (Or: The  “I Do Not Think That Word Means What You Think That It Means” Problem.)
Basically, it goes like this:  I say something to you, using English, our common language.   You understand me well enough, being that English is our shared language, but you understand me imperfectly, because you cannot possibly understand all of the connotations, all the memories and associations and connections that are triggered for me by the words I chose, since they came from my entire lived experience, my family’s history, and everything I know of the world that is unique to me.  And, if I attempt to explain it to you, we are facing the problem of imperfect language again.  It’s a vicious cycle!  We’re all soooooo aloooone!  Sad mimes in berets!
So, then, Lacan and other French post-modernists would argue, we are continually talking past each other to some degree or another.  (Lacan, being a psychologist, would also argue that this also makes us sad, and can ultimately motivate us to have better lives, but that’s another story.)  To try to mitigate this talking-past-problem, we humans have developed the capacity for conscious metaphorical language, since our basic language isn’t conveying literal truth so well anyway.  (In fact, you could argue, and I would, that all language is metaphor; some just more conscious than other.)  Like me saying I was brushing up on post-modernism–I wasn’t literally brushing up on Lacan.  He’s dead, and that’s both disgusting and hard to do.  But it conveys something more concrete (see, another one!) to you than me saying I was re-learning Lacan.
And here’s where I think this applies to ministry.  As we’ve become more self-consciously post-modern (or, rather, many of us have, especially those among us who are youngish), I’ve noticed our metaphors becoming more self-conscious as well, and more elaborate, almost like we’re trying to construct an entire other language with more circumscribed meanings, to lessen the innate misunderstanding.  We actually want to communicate better, have that implicit understanding, and we have a growing awareness that people are different from us, and this understanding is actually not guaranteed.  So we try to manufacture ways around that.
My brother and I went for months on end, in high school and college, where we would mainly speak to each other in quotations from ‘The West Wing.’  Aside from the fact that we clearly have extremely good taste, I think it was an attempt to find a shared language, somewhere, given that at the time, we had almost nothing else in common, no common experiences to solidify our common language.  But the world of the West Wing was static enough that if we quoted that to each other, we knew what it meant.  But outside that static world?  Nope, we were ships passing in the night.
For preaching, this is huge.  For anyone in the church at all, this is huge.   If language is freighted with extra baggage, and we can’t assume any common meanings any more, then preachers have to be extra-special, super-duper careful.  And I mean it.  Anything said is liable to misinterpretation and confusion, and not just by the one guy in the fourth row who didn’t like you in the first place.
Tape the Prayer of Humble Access to your foreheads, people, and memorize it.
 In fact, maybe we need a new one for the 21st century:
“WE DO NOT PRESUME… that those words that meant one thing when we were kids still mean that same thing.
WE DO NOT PRESUME…. that the Bible verse that has been comforting to me is comforting to everyone.
WE DO NOT PRESUME…. that because I repeat a phrase over and over again, everyone knows what it means.
WE DO NOT PRESUME…that we can continue to use the same words and phrases with abandon and everyone will understand what we mean.”
The work of preaching is now as much about constructing a common language as it is about sharing the gospel.  We have to redefine ‘salvation’, ‘grace’, ‘love’ , even ‘God’ and ‘Jesus’, because we cannot assume a common, static understanding.
We have to reconstruct one for ourselves.

On the day after

As promised, here’s the sermon I actually gave today. I preached at an Episcopal/Lutheran church on the edge of the Grand Canyon, in Williams.

May 22, 2011
5 Easter, Year A
John 14: 1-14

In 1844, a preacher in the Millerite movement named Samuel S. Snow read his Bible, and deciphered the Book of Daniel to such an extent that he declared that God would cleanse the earth with a plague of fire on October 22 of that year, destroying it utterly. Thousands of people rallied around his teachings, gave away their belongings and their property in preparation.

But, as you know, the world did not end. The day came to be called ‘The Great Disappointment.” Undeterred, Snow’s followers went on to found the Seventh-Day Adventists.

In 1806, a chicken, in Leeds, England, was discovered to be laying eggs that bore the inscription ‘Christ is returning.’ This caused no end of religious fervor in the city, and the entire country. People began to visit the hen in large numbers, and venerate the eggs as holy. To prepare for the return of Christ by selling all they had, etc.

Then, as an author of the time wrote, “A plain tale was soon put down, and quenched their religion entirely. Some gentlemen, hearing of the matter, went one fine morning, and caught the poor hen in the act of laying one of her miraculous eggs. They soon ascertained beyond doubt that the egg had been inscribed with some corrosive ink, and cruelly forced up again into the bird’s body. At this explanation, those who had prayed, now laughed, and the world wagged as merrily as of yore.”

And the world did not end.

As you might have heard, a radio preacher named Harold Camping predicted that the Rapture was supposed to occur last evening at 6pm, based on his personal reading of the Bible. All of the ‘faithful, bible-believing Christians’ would be whisked up to heaven while everyone else would stay to experience five months of desolation, torment and tribulation. After which, on October 21, God would finally destroy the entire world he had once created, everyone left behind included.

But, if you’ll notice, the world did not end. Or at least, no one got raptured. Much to the dismay I suppose of the people who started the Eternal Rest pet watching service, who for the low price of 150$ each, would match your left-behind pet with an unRaptured atheist, starting at 6:01pm yesterday. So someone will feed it.

How do we know? How do we know who to believe and what to believe? How do we know when we are confronted with a multitude of voices saying, “Listen to me! Do what I say! I know the truth! And the world really will end!” And they sound so sure, many of them. They sound so rational, some of them, and so clear, others of them. And then again, it’s not like there’s a lot in the world that’s clear and logical and rational in the first place, so isn’t it nice sometimes just to have a clear voice to follow, to give instructions?

So how do we know which voice to listen to? How do we know which voice leads us down the road to God?

We’re in the section of the lectionary right now where Jesus is giving his disciples final instructions before he’s arrested and crucified. It’s a section of the Fourth Gospel called the Farewell Discourse, and it’s basically their marching orders from here on out. How to be the church in the world, now that the Jesus training wheels are coming off.
And so today, it is in this context that we get this conversation with Philip and Thomas. Lord, show us the Father. Lord, show us the way.

In other words, this little ragtag band of misfits badly wants some assurance that they are doing the right thing, that they are on the right track in Gods eyes. And what does Jesus say in response?

If you have seen me, you have seen the Father. I am the way, the truth and the life.
In other words, you want to know God? Want to know what God wants, who God is? Look at Jesus.

Jesus is the clearest picture of God we have as Christians. Jesus is the window through which we see God most clearly. Jesus is our litmus test. Want to know if you’re on the right track or not? If what someone is telling you is from God or not? Ask yourself if it squares with the sort of thing Jesus cared about or not. Jesus is the standard. Through Jesus, we see God.

And while we can never learn everything there is to know about God, we get enough to begin to trace the faint outlines of who God is, and what God cares about.
In Jesus, what do we see?

We see a person who taught those around him.
Who taught us to love our neighbor as ourselves, as the greatest commandment. To give away all we have in care for the poor and the suffering. Who told us that as we have done to the least of these, so you have done to me, and that is how we will be judged.

We also see a person who lived out what he taught. Who spent his time among the lowest in his society. Who healed the sick, and the suffering, without question or precondition, and stood up for the persecuted, even at great cost to himself. He ate with tax collectors and lepers, sent women to preach his resurrection, and sent a mission to the Gentiles.

This is the Jesus that we see in the gospels; this is the God that Jesus shows us. A God of boundless, infinite love, mercy and compassion.

This God, the God of Jesus, is a particular type of God, yes? This is character of God who called his creation ‘good’. And this sort of God, this god of Jesus, is irreconcilable with the god who was preached on the airwaves this week, who was supposed to have the rapture yesterday. The God of Jesus is irreconcilable with a god who would send utter destruction and death on most of the human race as punishment for wrong belief. The God of Jesus would never wipe out most of humanity in earthquakes, fires and plagues just because they failed to properly figure out hidden number puzzle clues, and who gives true believers a free ticket out of harms way, then lets them watch, and cheer, while the rest of creation burns.

The Rapture god is not the God shown to us in Jesus. That is not the Way or the Truth Jesus shows us.

The god of the Rapture, the way of the apocalyptic vision, might offer easy assurance and simple to grasp formulas that explain, that we are in the chosen few. It might offer the excitement of being in on secret, hidden knowledge. It might offer the privilege of feeling more righteous than everyone around us. And all of those are very attractive when the world is chaotic, when times are tough and uncertain.

But they are no substitute for the living, breathing, presence of God in Christ. And today, my friends, the created world keeps turning, and the living Christ is yet still with us. And that’s truly rapture enough.
Amen.

In case of Rapture…

According to the Font of All Wisdom known as ‘The West Wing’, there were two speeches written for the Apollo moon landing: one if they were successful and Americans made history for all humanity (theme: hooray, we are successful and have made history for all humanity!) and a second one if something went wrong and the astronauts couldn’t take off again from the lunar surface and were left to die on worldwide television (theme: Augh. We’re sorry and will fire all of NASA. Oops.). In this spirit, I have prepared the following sermon for Sunday, JUST IN CASE. (Also, ahead there be sarcasm. Just so you know.)

Dear sisters and brothers in Christ.

Today is a special day. A momentous day. I realize it may not feel like that, what with the enormous earthquake that swallowed California last night. That was too bad. Or the swarm of locusts currently blacking out the sun. Also an unfortunate occurrence. And not because of the massive global war that was mysteriously and for no reason whatsoever declared this morning. Though that was something, too. Who’d have thought that Iran, Iraq, and Kim Jong Il would ever agree on anything? Seriously, it’s like the militarized lion and lamb are hanging out together over here!

Just crazy, really.

Anyway,as I said, it’s a momentous day. Mainly, because it’s the day when we mainstream Christians announce, We Have Evidently Been Doing It Wrong.

Yes, indeed, as we sit here, in this bomb shelter, where we’ve had to move, with our bottled water and canned goods, to escape the fallout radiation, I can announce to you, dear friends, that we, and by we, I mainly mean I, was wrong.

I was wrong.

See, I took Jesus seriously all those times he said feed the poor, care for the widow and orphan. Give away all you have, seek first the kingdom, consider the lilies.
Do unto others, love your neighbor, no man has greater love than this, love your enemies, pray for your persecutors, as you have done for the least of these, so you have done for me, and on and on.
And I have urged you to do the same.

What can I say, but whoops?

Clearly, this was my huge mistake. Clearly, I see now, as clearly as I see this mushroom cloud rising over the Peaks, that he was obfuscating his true meaning of esoteric numerology!

We made the simple mistake, my friends, of thinking our Lord and Savior was trying to guide us and humanity through the ages to a better, more loving, more abundant life, when what it turns out he wanted to do was trick us! Trick us with hidden number codes, like Dan Brown, and plots of massive destruction that would make Jerry Bruckheimer weep for joy, so that only incredibly smart insiders would get saved. (I’m not bitter though. Nope, I’m fine.) The truth was there all
along, we were just too simple-minded too see it! God has been tricking us this whole time!

But now that is over, and we finally have the chance to see our awesome action hero God in all his true glory, as he ruthlessly destroys the world he made. Remember when we all thought Jesus came to save the world, not judge or destroy it? Yup, that was a total misdirect! That fourth gospel writer, what a tricky devil!

My friends, we know the truth now. We live not in a complex, creation of a caring deity who sustains each of us with every breath, and came to dwell among us so that we might have life abundant.

This is a Michael Bay movie.

Condemned to a life of funny shirts

Last week, Womenspirit, a vestment and clergy apparel company, announced that they were releasing a new sort of clergy shirt for women.

The remarkable thing about this clergy shirt?
IT IS KNIT.  IT STRETCHES.  IT CONTAINS SPANDEX.
Behold!  I am doing a new thing, saith the Lord. 
Cue singing choirs of angels, cartwheeling seraphim, and flying cherubim.  
Women clergy everywhere gasped.   Could this be?  What we had been waiting for?  Praying for?
The long-expected shirt that would both denote our vocation and ministry, yet not make us look collectively like Laura Ingalls Wilder on a bad acid trip, or like someone with severe body dysmorphia who got dressed in the dark?
After all, we had waited over 30 years now.  30 long years of wearing polyester shirts left over from the men’s section of the catalog.  30 years of wearing shirts that were meant to be tucked in.  Because that’s a thing people still do, somewhere.  (In that place where lost socks and pens live, I think).  30 years of wearing shirts that have mutton-chop sleeves, and ruffled button plackets, and no bust darts, and no tailoring that would indicate the maker has any sort of rudimentary knowledge that women might, possibly, maybe, look different from men.
But we did it.  We sucked it up.  Because Lord knows, we fought hard to get ordained, and stay ordained, and the collar was a privilege, and on the list of things to complain about, the fact that we all looked like we were wearing unfortunate Hefty bags was low on the list, and rightly so.
But, now.  Now, it’s 2011.  Now the Episcopal Church has consecrated the Rt. Rev. V. Gene Robinson and the Rt. Rev. Mary Glasspool.  We have the Extremely Rt. Rev and Awesome ++KJS and we’ve been on the Daily Show several times.
Now can I get a shirt that fits, please?!?
This is not it.  
This, as one friend put it, looks like a barrel.  A pregnant barrel.  A pregnant barrel that is poorly-fitted.  AGAIN.
(and way too expensive.)
Why is this difficult?  Why?  It’s a shirt.  Shirts aren’t hard.  Wal-mart can pull off shirts, which indicates that literal small children can make them.  This shouldn’t be the hardest thing in the world, yet it seems to be.
Please, Manufactures of Clergywear.  You make vestments that look like safari wear, walking icons, and amazing modern art.  How hard is a shirt?!

Like a circuit rider, but with better shoes

So one of the perks of my job situation right now is that, rather than having a steady parish gig on Sundays, I do a lot of supply work. (like a substitute teacher for priests, only less throwing of things and more traveling for me.)

This week, I was at a lovely little Episcopal/ELCA combo parish in the White Mountains. Awesomely, I spent the night at a hotel located off of Deuce of Clubs Road.
This parish is filled with extraordinarily nice and helpful people– they even had brought me coffee from McDonalds when I arrived for the early service. (Rite One gets a less comprehensible minus the caffeine.). But we have an interesting relationship. The last time I went out there was the Sunday after SB1070 (the infamous AZ immigration bill) was passed.
This week was….well, you know. Poor people. I’m going back on Pentecost, and here’s hoping we break our streak.

Anyway, here’s what I said.

3 Easter, year A
Luke 24:13-35

Are you the only stranger in Jerusalem who doesn’t know the things that have taken place?
The disciples in the gospel story today have had quite the week.
They’ve watched their teacher and leader and friend, the one that they’ve pinned all their hopes and dreams on get killed by the Roman authorities as a rebel, and now they are pretty certain that the Romans will be coming for them next. That is Putting Down a Rebellion 101 in the Roman playbook, after all.
So Cleopas, and the Unnamed Disciple hit the road out of town. (According to some local Jerusalem traditions, the other disciple is his wife, Mary, who appears in the other resurrection accounts, and I’ve always liked that.) They leave. They head for Emmaus, where they figure they will be safe.
And on the way, they discuss with each other what’s been happening, because it’s the only thing either of them can think about. Actually, they do more than discuss. The Greek word for what they are doing is too strong for ‘discuss’. They are fighting with one another–that’s a closer translation of the word. Evidently the two have differing opinions on what has happened in their lives that has affected them so deeply.
But still, they keep talking. And still, they walk on towards Emmaus.
And into their argument, their confusion, strolls Jesus. A bit unexpected, really, and he doesn’t quite announce himself all that well. They don’t recognize him at all, and he almost is playing a trick on them, acting like he has no idea who they are, or what has been happening.
But he enters into their conversation. He joins their spirited argument with some thoughts of his own. And they reach Emmaus.
It is in the disciples’ attempts to make sense TOGETHER out of what has happened, that Jesus appears to them. It is in their very argument, and their diversity of opinion that he appears. It’s in the community re-forming, after his death, that Christ is present, again.

So, too, in our way, we have had quite the week in this world, my friends.
If you were sitting here, last Sunday, chances are the biggest news story in your mind was the Royal Wedding. How the dress was lovely, the music superb, the Archbishop’s eyebrows unfortunately unmanaged, and the hats amazing. Or, if you were really into the news, how Seth Meyers had done quite the number at the White House Correspondents Dinner on Saturday night.

And then…and then, there was Sunday night.
And late Sunday night, we all got the news that at the President’s orders, American troops had killed Osama bin Ladin in Pakistan.
And suddenly, that’s all anyone could talk about, anywhere you looked. television, radio, the internet, everywhere you looked, all anyone could talk about.

It’s been quite the week.
And it’s hard to know quite how to react to this. Aside from the fact that emotions are emotions, and telling people what to feel is about as useful as trying to command the tides, it’s just so complicated. What happened on Sunday is inextricably linked on an emotional level to what happened on 9/11, and it brings everything up again. And so there is an expectation this will finally erase some of that trauma–give us some closure, some relief, some justice, as the oft-repeated phrase goes.
so there were mass gatherings in the streets, Sunday night. People gathering and cheering, and singing.
and yet. That doesn’t quite cover what happened, does it? ::needs to be actual question::

for all that September 11th was an open question that this past Sunday answered, there’s also a sense in which Sunday just posed more questions that we don’t have clear answers to.
because when the dust clears a bit from this week, and the wall to wall news coverage dissipates, what will have changed? Will the wars end? Can we take liquids through airports? Will the world now, finally, be a safe place?
Will the memory of all thats happened in the past ten years really, finally, be redeemed in some way? Because really, isn’t that what we all want in the end?

I don’t think we know. At this point we’re still on the road to Emmaus, looking for that place of safe haven.

Today, as people of faith, we find ourselves, much like the two disciples did, searching for the presence of Christ to guide us down the road.

As so, how do we find Christ as we walk? Where do we look for resurrection in our world right now?

One place to start, unlikely as it sounds, is in our arguments. Our discussions. We need to develop the ability as Christians to talk about what is happening in our world with each other. Talk about it, wrestle with it, even when we disagree. Especially when we disagree. If we want Christ, God incarnate in the world, to be present to us, we must be present to the world, and present to each other. Even if that means rocking the boat a bit.

And granted, it’s scary. Trust me, I realize that most of us have been well socialized to avoid talking about all topics more controversial than the weather and isn’t this coffee lovely? But in every post resurrection appearance he makes, Jesus appears to disciples who are terrified, and overwhelmed, and argumentative, and says the same thing, Fear Not.

So, Engaging with each other is how we learn to hear Jesus. But notice when Cleopus and friend finally recognize him. It’s not until they invite him to stay with them for supper that evening. It’s not until they invite a “perfect stranger” to share their hospitality that they recognize the risen Christ for who and what he is that the pieces fall into place.

When we reach out to each other, when we wrestle with what is happening in the world around us, this is how we begin to hear the risen Christ. But when we extend this hospitality to everyone in our world, when we reach out our hands in love to everyone, even those not like us, even those who would do us harm, even those who wish us dead, when we model that sort of love in the world, that’s when we start to embody the sort of resurrection that Christ calls us to. That’s when we start to redeem the trauma and the tragedy that happens in our world: all the good Fridays that happen over and over. Both to us individually and to us as a people.
We don’t get there through anger. We don’t get there any other way. We get there through reaching out our hands in love.

Resurrection lies in going beyond, in giving up ourselves to caring for the suffering, a hurting world, a hurting creation, where too many people feel just as we have felt: betrayed, abandoned, and unheard. Resurrection comes when we use what we have learned through our own pain to care for others, when we break bread only to give it away, instead of hoarding it for ourselves. if we summon our power only in the service of others, and not our own glory.

We always have the choice to pursue resurrection. We always have the choice to walk into Easter. Emmaus lies just before us, and the risen Christ walks with us, always. All we have to do, is choose to see him.
AMEN.