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Convention has ended. It was a fun, joyous, hilarious and exhausting ride. And is now over. Which suggests that I can take a nap, and wear a non-collared shirt for a full day, and stop demanding that people call the question when I want them to be quiet.

I was all ready to come home yesterday, all set to read mindless fashion magazines on when plane when I glanced at Twitter, and discovered that the Wall Street Journal has lost its collective mind.

I’m not going to link to the article. You can Google it if you wish. It makes for a fascinating and hilarious bit of fiction. From the author’s point of view, The Episcopal Church has emerged straight from a Trollope novel, complete with lavish dinners, the finest wines, and a clandestine potentate, with a mission to destroy democracy, marriage and kittens. If we have time, we shall continue on to massacre apple pie, and America, but we might already be dead by then, so who knows?**

Wiser folks than me have responded already. You can read their replies here, here, and here.. All are brilliant, and say the things I was thinking calmly, and reasonably, which is to be commended. It hurts when someone slimes your beloved family like this.

Stepping back for a bit though–I wonder if this isn’t a positive sign. There seems to be, in certain quarters, the ready expectation that our church would die or implode, or break itself apart. After 2003, I seem to remember that forecast of doom being repeated over and over. “This will kill the church. You’re leaving the historic faith and no one will listen to you”.

Turns out, that didn’t happen like anyone thought.

True, we had epic property battles. People were hurt. People left the church. Several dioceses tried to depart, and it was ugly and painful, and I would just as soon never watch that happen again.

But a nationwide schism? Two dueling Episcopal churches in the US? TEC drummed out of the Anglican Communion with no friends, no ties, and no hope for the future, because we dared actually follow Jesus in our own context?

Nope. That didn’t happen. As we stand here, nine years on, the splinter groups have largely broken apart themselves. The remnants of the departing dioceses are proudly Episcopal still, and have started to welcome back many of those who left in the first place. The Anglican Covenant is now so low on anyone’s list of concerns, that we actually declined to respond to the request.

Instead, we started to ask: how can we do more of this following Jesus thing. How can we do it through structure? Through justice work? Through inclusion? Through how we treat each other? Through preaching and study and everything else the church is about?

It seems many of us like following Jesus as much as we liked worshipping him.

I suppose this greatly enrages some onlookers. We have been annoyingly reluctant to die, to conform to their narrative. Instead, we’ve been meandering our way into this interesting new way of being. (Episcopalians tend to meander like a giant conga line, I think.). That proves these onlookers wrong: that scares them, that makes them angry.

I’m ok with that. We’ve moved from being ignored as a church, to being laughed at, to being fought and openly opposed. I do believe something similar happened to Jesus. And if we’re intent on doing this like he did it, then we should be really ecstatic that some guy at WSJ is furious over our existence.

What comes next is resurrection.

Bring it on.

** I accept that I am prone to hyperbole, but I swear I am not making this up. So I have an offer for the Journal: in 2015, I’ll be the young female priest scarfing down energy bars and coffee between committee hearings and the end of legislative session. FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT’S HOLY, could you please save me some of these lavish dinners and finest wine you evidently found? I return, I’ll show you the nearest Panera, and plug for your iPhone.

Sleep Is For The Weak: #GC77 Day 3-5

Huh. Remember the time when I thought I could tweet, AND blog at convention, do committee work, legislative work, and also sleep?
I was but a foolish child then. Now I know better.
Food exists not here. Sleep exists not here.
Only Twitter. And voting. And amendments.

This may be a slight exaggeration. But in all seriousness, while I apologize that the blog hasn’t been as daily as I would have liked,my Twitter is constant. And following #gc77 will get you up to the minute details on all the Convention doings. And will let me sleep some. Where, no lie, I have started dreaming in parliamentary procedure. (And how did we survive without Twitter at convention? How? Now I can track legislation in several hearings at once and coordinate with others. It’s magic!!!)

Because the pace has accelerated. Now we have real legislation on the floor, and real arguments. But also, gorgeous Eucharists every day, with over 500 people in a room, all chanting and praying together. We have random moments of humor in the midst of tension, and nothing reminds me how much I love this Church than its amazing ability to laugh at itself.

For all that there’s really no time to eat or sleep, this is fun. I testified before PB&F again, on behalf of college ministry. I testified in front of Structure, to give young adults a larger voice in reform. I sponsored a resolution challenging the church to embrace social media, like Twitter. That has a hearing tomorrow morning, so we’ll see what happens. (Fun and scary, I should specify.)

Tonight, we had a gathering of Millennial leaders, both lay and clergy. All the under-35(ish) people involved at Convention that I could find, together in a room. You’ll get a longer report on that later (tomorrow? Hopefully?) But as everyone was going around, talking about why they were Episcopalian, and when they had felt connected or empowered this week, it hit me again.

I really, really, really love my job.

Organized: #GC77 Day 2

Today was the first day of legislation, and the first day the Houses got organized to begin their work. I know this, because I was drafted to carry a message from the House of Deputies to the House of Bishops, bearing the greetings of the house, and the message that we were organized. it was insanely complicated: my name was called (me and the lay deputy who was my Message Carrying Buddy) and forward to the platform we went. We greeted the President of the House. We received permission to leave the floor, and got our note, and headed over to the House of Bishops,
We may have then gotten lost. The convention center is huge. But we straightened it out.
And found the bishops, and asked to be received. Then, we repeated the same procedure: approach the stage, shake the PB’s hand, convey the greetings of the House of Deputies, and read my happy note. Then home to my happy Arizona deputation table I returned.

You’d be amazed how many people came up to me afterwards to tell me what a fantastic job I did. (The walking! How great! You never fell or anything!) Church, you concern me. If our standard for getting very excited is that a young priest can carry a note and read it aloud, we need to work harder. Dream big, people.
And believe it or not, this getting organized task, and a few other housekeeping-type things were all the legislation we got done today.

In other news, Canons is stalled because all of our resolutions are being worked over in other committees. Meanwhile, we held our own hearing on the proposed Title IV changes. Very exciting stuff.

And speaking of hearings, I said yesterday that I would knock off testifying in front of big and scary committees. That streak lasted 12 hours. Structure held a hearing this evening, and I spoke. A friend from seminary (@MoAmy on Twitter) has proposed a resolution asking that whatever body is in charge of reforming the structure be comprised of no less than 30% young adults. So I talked about the need for younger voices in this conversation, more of the voices that are currently underrepresented. Rather than more of the people who have lost any critical distance.
We’ll see. It’s still an early conversation.

Stay tuned!

Closed-toed shoes and Archived sport coats: #GC77 Day 1

Indianapolis, I may tell you, is having a heat wave. 100 degrees plus humidity to welcome the Episcopal Church in all its glory.
I arrived here on Monday, but today is the first full day of legislative committees and orientation in the House of Deputies.
No lie– we had orientation in the House of Deputies today. How the Rules of Order work, how the Courtesy rules work, how the voting mechanisms work. To work out the voting, we practiced on the question “Shall acolytes in TEC wear closed toed shoes on the altar?”. It was a squeaker, but voted yes. (Problematically, the esteemed Scott Gunn tweeted this event, and many in the twitterverse took him seriously.). The vote by orders decided the question of whether we should archive Gregory Straub’s sports costs. This vote was not close.
And we’re off and running. The Legislative Committee for Canons has much work ahead of it– most of which we can’t touch until the other committees hold hearings first, and report the resolutions out. Meanwhile, the Title IV changes that were made last time around….turns out that several dioceses don’t think they were constitutional. But guess what I learned today! We don’t have a Supreme Court in this church. The only institution empowered to decide if the actions of General Convention are constitutional is…..General Convention. (It’s slightly more complex than that, having to do with our historical preference for context over theory, but there you go.)

Meanwhile, Program, Budget and Finance began the hearings today regarding the budget. They were packed. I mean, people against the walls, in the hall, out the doors, etc. PB&F surprised everyone at the start by announcing that they were starting with the outline of the PB’s budget. NOT the Executive Council’s draft budget as passed. This is procedural drama of a sort, but really, PB&F writes the budget themselves. I presume they can take from wherever they want to draft the budget they will present to Convention. There’s no call to flip the toddler tantrum switch over this.
I testified before the committee. There was no shortage of very articulate young adults and youth speaking to the importance of youth and young adult ministries, including campus ministry. (We have organized well, clearly.) I was very proud. It’s a terrified blur at this point, but basically, I said: “I am 28 years old, and I’ve been a priest for 4 years. This is because a generation ago, people like you thought young people were important enough to fund on a church wide level. But this budget wasn’t about me. It’s about the students I work with, every day. Who are told, day in and day out, that they are crazy for going to church. Or that they are bad liberals. Or that they aren’t Christian enough, because they don’t hate the right people.
But the gospel we know, as Episcopalians, the Jesus we know, the God we know who loves everyone unconditionally, is needed by these people. That gospel is life giving for people. And every cent we cut from that is damaging to the news that people are hungry for. And we should be concerned about that.”

We’ll see what happens tomorrow.

Orientation-ing

For the past month, Northern Arizona University has held a series of New Student Orientations: two a week, all through June.  Incoming students flood Flagstaff’s pretty little town (and tiny, overstressed roads) and make shopping at the sole Target near-impossible.  Along with their parents, guardians, and/or siblings, they tour the dorms, sign up for classes, and attend the ORIENTATION EXPO!

The ORIENTATION EXPO! occurs at 7:30 AM (yes.  AM.) outside along one of the walkways on NAU’s campus.  Each student activity signs up for a table, and the right to stand at said table, hawking their services.  Everyone from Parking Services, to the Bookstore, to Campus Crusade for Christ shows up, and hands out pamphlets and swag.

Basically, it’s running the gauntlet of brochures, overwhelming information, and candy, at an hour that no seventeen year old is functioning.  (And there’s no coffee. Did I mention that?)

NAU Canterbury has been present for the past 3 summers.  We have colorful brochures, colorful business cards, and a bobble head Jesus.  Here is our table.  (And yes, I set this up for a month, and JUST NOW realized that Canterbury is misspelled.  See what happens when I am asked to do things without benefit of caffeine?!)

Our table.

These expos are instructive.  For as much as we have been talking recently about getting out of the church building and mixing with Actual Unchurched People, this is a way to do it.

Things I have Learned:

  • Few know what ‘Episcopal’ means.
    I mean, like no one.  Almost no one has heard of it before.  But those who have, think it’s great.  The people who know what the big, scary, Greek word on the banner is, generally have positive associations with it.
  • So this is mainly about education.  Education that we, at least, aren’t frightening or abusive (and I’m using those terms intentionally.)  Education that we aren’t those ‘Christian’ voices who picket funerals, and bomb clinics, and advocate killing groups of people in the name of God.
  • This is, obviously, tough to do in 45 seconds.  So mainly, I talk about how we have meals with all our activities, we’re welcoming, and affirming, and give them our brochure.

I can’t overcome all preconceived notions about what Christianity is or is not in a 30 second conversation.  And this results sometimes in events like the young man who told me flat out that he couldn’t attend my ministry because he didn’t believe that women should speak in church.  Alrighty then.  And it becomes harder still when the majority of Christian voices on campus reinforce these ideas.

What I can do is be a friendly, nonthreatening and welcoming presence that hopefully, causes curiosity.  Maybe the new student will remember that this one time, there was this odd priest-lady who seemed nice, and it might not be so scary to take a friend along to go check that group out, one day, when everything seems awful, and hope seems really distant.  That’s worth being awake at 7:30 am.